October 6, 2007

Is the world falling apart? For some people it is.

I got an IM from a friend today that I haven't talked to in a while. She recently graduated and is now in grad school out west. I guess she just needed someone to talk to. She told me that last night she asked a friend if he would date her and he responded with something along the lines of "I like this other girl". Combine that with another friend breaking up with his longtime GF, and I started thinking about love.

My friend told me earlier that "Love just sucks". In my current state, I would have to hardily agree. But I haven't always felt this way. You see, I think Love is more like a cliff or a mountain. When you are in love, you are on top of the mountain. You feel like nothing can touch you. The world and everything in it is beautiful. But then you get dumped, and you fall. And it's a long fall, all the way down. You make bad decisions and only end up hurting yourself more, until you finally hit the bottom. Then, after a little while, you decide to pick yourself up and start climbing up that mountain. But it's hard and it sucks and all you can see is those people still on top that are so happy and completely oblivious to your pain. Their happiness shields them, and they see even your trouble as a passing thing. They really have no idea. You've never really felt pain until you've had your heart broken and had to live with it for weeks... months... years.

So you have to climb by yourself. Maybe you'll find someone to help you climb, to climb with you. So when you finally reach the top you have someone who has weathered through the pain with you, and it's that much more beautiful to see. At least until you lose it again, and plummet once again.



So yes, "Love sucks". Although I never went to a doctor, when my ex broke up with me, I'm pretty sure I was clinically depressed for a year. But there was a time when I truly believed that with love, I could get through anything. What I didn't realize was what happened when that love went away, and it's safety net with it. I wasn't prepared, which made the fall even worse. And I sat at the bottom of the mountain and thought to myself, "what the hell just happened?" So now, as yet again I climb that bastard of a hill, my heart has become hardened. I no longer give of myself to everyone. I now do things for me, even if they hurt other people sometimes. Tough cookies.

Despite all of this, I am and always will be a hopeless romantic. I still (literally) have dreams about being in love and I know some day I will be again. I don't want to be a heartless ass, but sometimes I can't help it. And at least one of my friends has noticed that I'm not exactly the same.

So as I listened to my friend vent about how his girlfriend had just broken up with him, I felt really bad for him. I've been there, and it sucks more that anything. And I would never wish it on anyone.

October 5, 2007

Boys and Girls in America

Artist: The Hold Steady
Release Date: October 3, 2006
Stand Out Songs: First Night, Stuck Between Stations, Hot Soft Light
Favorite Lyric(s): "I've had kisses that make Judas seem sincere."
Interesting Fact: Daniel Radcliffe claims they are his favorite band.

Thoughts: This album is straight up rock. Distortion, guitar solos and lyrics about drugs and alcohol. Actually, I think every song on the album mentions one of the two. But that's what rock is isn't it? The other thing that I love about this band is that although they are based out of Brooklyn, four of it's five members are from Minneapolis. To my delight, they mention well known Twin Cities hotspots, such as Highway 494, France Ave., and Nicollet (similar to Motion City Soundtrack). I also found it interesting that the lead singer Craig Finn looks like he could almost be my dad. I hope I can still be rocking out when I hit 36!

Watch for: Dual-solos in Some Kooks as well as a dogfight solo in Hot Soft Light. Also, the nostalgia themed First Night.

Bottom Line: 84 / 100

October 3, 2007

I miss my drumset...


Sometimes it's all I need.

October 2, 2007

Explosions in the Sky

Explosions in the Sky is my new favorite ambient band. Actually, they are much more experimental, but I listen to them like I would Sigur Ros or The Album Leaf. They have a link to a live video of their song Catastrophe and the Cure up on the Virb frontpage. I would embed the video, but it's really wide and would attack the sidebar.

If you haven't heard this band, take a look.

October 1, 2007

Free Ludo!

Ludo has a new album coming out soon called You're Awful, I Love You. But before that, they are on tour. You can read their tour diary and watch weekly clips on their MySpace page.

Also, you can listen to the first two songs on the new album, as well as download Love Me Dead for free(!) on their Purevolume page.

Even If It Kills Me

(I've had a 3 albums for a few weeks now, and I've been meaning to write about them and my thoughts. But since I have a lot less time this semester, I'm going to shorten this. Here goes.)

Album: Even If It Kills Me
Artist: Motion City Soundtrack
Release Date: September 18, 2007
Stand Out Songs: This Is For Real, Broken Heart, The Conversation
Favorite Lyric(s): "With all my dreams hooked to hospital machines/I think, 'let's try redefining beautiful.'" - "I had a pocketful of dreams, but I gave them all to you."

Thoughts: I love this album! MCS is still alive and well! I'll have to admit that it took me a few listens to get used to it, but I had to do that with I Am the Movie too. A few of the songs are a little more pop than usual, but I don't think it's a bad thing at all. Look for the drum beat in Can't Finish What You Started; I still don't believe he can do that live. Also, the acoustic version of Broken Heart that came with the pre-order? Not worth it. It's not even MCS playing it.

Right away I noticed the song The Conversation, because it's so different for MCS. It's a very simple piano (acoustic) song with a lonesome melody. Justin's voice just gets to me in this song.

Bottom Line: 84 / 100

As if they weren't strange enough...

Last night my dreams got stranger than before. Every once in a while I'll have an interesting dream about something that isn't possible, but I'm not talking about that. Last night's dream was totally possible, and pretty scary. I only remember short clips or just a freeze-frame of a scene, possibly with a strong emotion connected to it, bit I still figured out the idea of my dream.

So last night I was yet again dating the same girl from a few past dreams. I was at her house, but it wasn't a house that I recognize. It's strange because I usually see places that I recognize even if they don't represent that place. We were flirting. End scene. Now cut to me over hearing a conversation of my aunt, who mentions that I had AIDs and had since birth (yet my mother didn't somehow). I started freaking out. I couldn't believe that no one had ever told me, and I had probably given it to at least one other person. I had pretty much ruined someone else's life because of someone else's stupidity. I was in shock.

I am soooo glad it was just a dream.

September 30, 2007

A Top Ten...

My friend Ashley sent me this link and I thought it was hilarious. It's the Top Ten Most Humiliating Ways Your Body Can Betray You in Bed (not for the young or the old). It's all true, and you just have to laugh it off and get on with the fun.

I think that everyone should be able to laugh at themselves in bed, but some people think otherwise. One sign of a queef and the lovin' halts. I figure, the more you laugh, the more intimate it can be. To a point, of course. So quit idealizing the act of "knockin' boots". There is a reason why they call it "bumping uglies".

Come back and make up a goodbye at least,

let's pretend we had one...

. . .

Goodbye.